A blog is not ideal. It wasn’t my first choice, but when my therapist terminated me in an emotionally traumatic manner, he topped it off with being unwilling to have a follow up conversation with me about it.
He seemed to really want me silenced, which I wasn’t going to be okay with. He doesn’t get to bully me and silence me too.
But I feel like I got what I needed from the blog. I don’t feel completely better, but I feel like I’ve proven that clients don’t have to withdraw into invisibility when therapists treat them badly. We deserve to be heard.
I feel like I’m to the point now though where there are other things I need to prioritize for my wellbeing.
I think that to stop writing about my bad therapist is okay now. If it made him hate me, that’s a win. Anything that makes him feel similar pain and humiliation to mine is good because I really want him to understand the level of harm he caused me and others. I want him to feel it on the level that will make him less likely to hurt anyone else.
So if he hates me or feels humiliated, that’s good. He needs to feel some of what he did. I can’t do anything to make sure he experiences the backstabbing and abandonment like he did to me, but the universe can handle that. That was never within the scope of this blog or my personal power.
I will always believe that a compassionate follow up session would’ve been the best choice, but he wouldn’t do that, so I had to make a blog.
It’s been a helpful tool in my healing, but I have different priorities now.