About

I started this blog after my therapist of a year and a half terminated me suddenly and coldly.

That experienced has caused me massive pain and confusion and I feel traumatized from it.

I was struck by how horrible it was to be devalued and discarded and stonewalled by somebody who was getting paid to be supportive and who convinced me he cared.

I don’t understand what happened and why my usually kind therapist turned casually cruel. I don’t know why out of all of his clients he chose to hurt me, and in such a personally tailored way.

It’s been a difficult journey. I tried to talk to my therapist after it happened, but he won’t talk with me. His supervisor offered to talk with me, but I don’t have a relationship with her and can never trust her because of what she had my therapist do to me.

I’ve been to other therapists and they’ve helped to some degree, but I feel like there’s nothing else they can do to help me.

I write here because it lets me feel like I haven’t been bullied into silence. I write about my feelings and write exploratory posts to try to make sense of and come to terms with what happened.

I feel bad, really bad some days. I’ve tried many different things to help me feel better, but nothing is helping as much as I need it to.

I don’t know what else to do.