I know, Counselor, let’s end therapy with mutual satisfaction, where we both get rewarded for all the effort we made.
Or, we can do it your way, where we stop part way through and neither of us gets to finish. I mean I don’t think like that, but maybe it’s a therapy termination edging fetish that I don’t fully appreciate.
I’m more of the kind of therapy partner who wants my partner and I to feel appreciated, beautiful, and satisfied. I thought we were both interested in doing it that way, but apparently not.
Look, you do you boo, I’m sure there are clients out there who like that therapy emotional torture type stuff, but that’s not how I am.
Frankly, I’m disappointed. I think if you’re into something specific like that then you need to communicate it with your partner beforehand. I have to say, I really didn’t appreciate the way you pulled out partway through and just stopped and left. It was awful and traumatizing on my side of the experience.
I’ve been sad for a long time until I realized that my pain diminishes a lot if I stop thinking of you as a good therapy partner. I don’t think it’s going to hurt you because you were the first one out the door, but I don’t love you anymore. I know it was stupid of me to try to love you and I promise I never planned it or saw it coming.
I had the passing thought the other day of wanting to tell you something about my week, and that was kind of what broke me. I realized I never mattered to you like you mattered to me and that imbalance of caring never works. I don’t need to languish on the losing end of a dead fake relationship.
I tried to reach out to you. I know I was blocked every which way so I gave up and started a blog. That naive client part thought she just needed to be louder and maybe you’d come back and give her a termination do-over. It was sad to watch her suffer and know there was nothing I could do to alleviate her pain, because she didn’t want me, she wanted you.
She finally broke and now she hates you. You don’t realize that you accomplished what several men tried and failed to do. You’re that guy, the one who looks and talks like a happy ending but doesn’t follow through, and she’s that girl, the one who was dumb enough to fall for it and made it out alive but broken.